But, if I am being honest, it wasn’t all rainbows and unicorns. Far from it, in fact. Here are my initial thoughts from my first run in 6 weeks...
My “internal pace” clock is totally out of wack
The overall pace of my run was 7:17/mile. I wanted to run around 7:45 – 8:00. Before, I could lock in on 7:30ish pace pretty easily, let my mind wander to how much I miss Simon Cowell on American Idol, and hold that for miles and miles without looking too much at my Garmin. However, having not run for quite some time, I no longer had my cruise control. My pace looked somewhat like an EKG. Up, down, up down. It was all over the map. I really hope it comes back soon because the jumpy pace was tough to push through
Probably the most interesting / sad thing was that I hadn’t put on running shoes in FOREVER so they felt really strange. They felt snug and warm like a condom for my feet. Normally I’m in dress shoes for work or flip flops so it was really strange to be in running shoes again.
Cross training works!! Sort of
Running requires two things:
I certainly didn’t have expectations that I’d go out and blast 4 miles pain free and everything would be awesome. But, I didn’t think that I’d have as much trouble as I’ve had over the last 3 days. The reality is that the soreness that I’ve had is really troubling. On Monday, my legs were sore enough that getting up off of the toilet was one of the hardest things I’d done all day. I had actually planned on running 6 miles that day but I had to push it to tonight. I keep having thoughts that are best summarized by “If I can’t run 4 miles without being a wreck, how am I going to run 26 miles in 20 days??” I honestly don’t have a good answer for that, I really don’t.
I Haz Sad
I’m trying to keep it all in perspective, but the soreness that I’ve seen has really taken a lot of wind out of my sails. I’m putting in so much effort to get to the starting line and I’m not 100% certain that I’ll get there. I feel like the frequent response that I get from people is to just not run this year and try to qualify again next year. However, the reality is that it took nearly everything I had to qualify this time.... what if I’m not able to do it?
But, on THAT happy note I’m reminded of the very common saying: if it were easy, everyone would do it. Another test run tonight!!